A new start.

Good day everybody,

As some of you might know i have been to Japan for about 5 months and came home in august again. In the meanwhile its already november and a few months have passed since I came home.

In Japan i made a lot of new friends from all across the world and barely had any alone time, which sometimes was a bit to much for me however, i started to get used to it slowly. Then i went back home again.. from being around people all day, suddenly it was just me and my parents again (my brother moved out while i was in Japan). 

This made me feel quite down in the first few days and maybe weeks, because it no longer was an option to just go have some coffee at a cafe with my roommate or study together in the library with some friends. Every thing needed to be planned again with my friends at home. Days before and sometimes weeks before we would plan dates to hang out together, but when the day would finally arrive, we would end up being to busy or i would just not feel like having the energy to meet up with friends. Which i was not happy with at all.

After a few weeks my school also started again and without knowing anybody i went to the classes and luckily i got to know some people in my class so that we could work on projects together but besides that no real friendships unfortunately.

Now you might think why is this girl being so negative about everything, she had a great time in Japan right!?

Well the thing is, I feel like i have lost my motivation for just standard things, like hanging out with my friends, go to school, work on projects etc.

Recently i got a new job which im really happy with, and at least im busy with that and it gives me the feeling that i am doing something usefull. However, when the times come that i have to do things for school for example i just start feeling down i guess or just super tired. 

This is not me asking for attention or anything, i just hope by writing this down i slowly start getting over it again and start to get more motivation for things again. Because, im not really happy with how it is right now. 

I stopped vlogging after Japan because i felt like my daily life became to boring and the laptop i would edit on, i have given to my sister temporarily for school because hers broke down.

But maybe its a good thing to start blogging again. About the little things i enjoy in life and maybe that will help me move forward again. 

So from here on i think its a good time for a new start, so lets do it!

Xoxo Ezzie